January 18th, 2002


Results from personality evaluation at brainbench.com with my comments in italics

Personality test at www.brainbench.com/html/bb/personality.html

Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
You are quite introverted (very, very true). Socially, you prefer a more relaxed, low-key environment, rather than the hustle and bustle of a wild night in the city. You tend not to talk a lot, but when you do people listen, because when you say something it has meaning. You are not seeking the limelight, usually you prefer to let the attention-mongers do their thing while you observe. In an unfamiliar setting, you tend to be cautious and shy while you evaluate the circumstances. You prefer to avoid conflict, so you do not put yourself into a threatening situation. Your shyness may be perceived as unfriendly, but that could not be further from the truth. People need to be patient with you and take the time to get to know the complex, private you.

Quite accurate

Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
You are moderately candid. You know how people in a group tend to agree with each other so that no one is dissenting? Well, you are not one of those people. You are gifted with the ability to make tough and objective decisions, even if it goes against the popular consensus. At work, you are the maverick with your no-nonsense, self-reliant and independent nature. You have a realistic outlook on life, and as a result you are more tough-minded than tender-minded. You prefer if others are independent, because going out of your way to help someone who you know is capable of helping themselves is not particularly appealing to you. In social relationships, you tend to be somewhat guarded and will only reveal the real you once you trust the other person (right on the money). Your level of self-esteem is admirable, and you would probably prefer if others were as confident, so that you would not have to take steps to boost their ego.
Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
You are very impulsive. You are an independent thinker. You do not need a book of rules to tell you how to behave - you know inside what is right and what is wrong and you act accordingly. You are able to live life spontaneously, because you are able to make decisions without endless deliberation (I disagree. I usually get bogged down in indecisiveness). In fact, when you and another person are making a decision, you are able to reach a solution fairly quickly while the other person has to cautiously plan every step. Eventually, they will agree with you, which is frustrating when your first impulse is usually the correct one in the decision-making process. You tend to be a little more casual, and you do not feel out of sorts when your home or office is not perfectly neat. In general, your life is pleasurable - you know how to have fun and will never be accused of being staid or stuffy (a matter of opinion that I don't trust a machine that never met me to form).
Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
You are very excitable. You do not like stressful situations. You tend to react emotionally to stress, which can lead to bad moods, or even anxiety, anger, or depression. You like to be treated fairly, and may become upset if you sense that someone is trying to cheat you. You may find urges and cravings irresistible to the point that you are giving into them even if you know you will regret it or feel guilty later. Sometimes you may feel uncomfortable in social situations, even thinking that others are judging you. This self-consciousness may show through as shyness, because you do not want people to think poorly of you. You tend to worry and are apprehensive in unfamiliar circumstances.

I don't know who wrote this, but if I didn't know better I would assume they had written it after reading my (as yet, unwritten) life story. Wow

Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
You are very practical. You want just the facts - keep it plain and simple. You are practical, pragmatic and well grounded. You have no time for carelessness and impracticality. You prefer to keep your emotions to yourself, rather than exposing your feelings to the world. Life moves along much better for you when you can maintain a schedule and have routine in your life. Unexpected surprises and chaos are a major inconvenience to you. You tend to be conservative and are somewhat resistant to change. Others respect your ability to act properly in your everyday life.

Again, it is as if this was written for me, personally.

The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
You are quite concrete in your thinking. You tend to prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious to the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. You might even regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. You believe that intellect should not be equated with intelligence, as intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability.


You appear to be suited for a Social career.

I'm sorry. I have to stop here to take a moment to express how absurd this sentence is. According to the breakdown above, I am introverted, guarded, and am uneasy in social situations. Social career indeed. LOL.

Social people seem to satisfy their needs in teaching or helping situations. They are drawn more to seek close interpersonal relationships and are less apt to engage in intellectual of extensive physical activity. The S type generally likes to help, teach, and counsel people more than engage in mechanical or technical activity. The S type usually likes to be around other people, working in groups and sharing responsibilities. They are good communicators (Partially true. I can communicate well in writing) and are interested in how people get along, and like to help other people with their problems. They like nursing, or giving first aid and providing information. They generally avoid using machines, tools (entirely false...I embrace both computers and tools), or animals (animals?!?) to achieve a goal. They see themselves as helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.

I don't know...I've had the feeling for a long time that I was in the wrong field. Maybe I should go back to pizza delivery. I really don't know how to react to the final paragraph.

  • Current Music
    My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult -The Reincarnation of Luna

What a great day.

The day started out crappy. I got the run-around from Sonic Blue when I called to see how much it would cost to fix my broken mp3 player. Fuck! I used that thing every day to listen to audio books while driving and music while riding my bike. Now I'm faced with
A. Doing without an audible®-ready mp3 player. (my worst fear)
2. Biting the bullet and laying down my already sparse cash for a replacement.
§. Laying down the aforementioned cash to fix the player I already have (which I understand will never be really fixed).

Anyway, I'll deal with that later. In the meantime (and it will be mean) I'll just have to read a *gulp* physical book. Doing so while driving will be just the challenge I need to spice up my life.

Moving on. I went to work...not a good day at work. The boss actually wanted me to do something. I said "yeah, ok" to blow him off. I hope I wrote down what he wanted me to do, so I can wait until the bleeding edge deadline where it would be impossible for any mortal to finish in time and then get started on it.

Ok, now the good stuff. My Barne's and Noble order shipped today, 8 days ahead of schedule. I can't wait to watch Requiem for a Dream again. Gary was right; it has become my favorite movie. Nudging The Big Lebowski down to 2nd. I also had some chess books in there.

Speaking of chess (shameless segue)...I finally...wait. I have to talk about my bike ride first. Otherwise there will be a continuity error. I, again, survived the 20 mile bike ride home from work on a busy highway, at night, in the rain. I feel a tangent coming...please...no..... What the fuck is wrong with people? I'm riding my bike at night...obviously wet...obviously tired. I mean, I'm doing something that most people consider brave, crazy, beneficial, and environmentally friendly all at the same time. I'm breathing pollution from cars....maneuvering around trash and debris pushed into my path by cars...wiping road-grit off of my face and out of my teeth from cars. I do it because I'm trying to make a difference in people's lives, not to mention my own. I do it because it's fun and different. And then some fuck-tard has to go and yell obscenities at me. As if I'm imposing somehow. I've heard "get off the road, asshole", "faggot", and others I couldn't really hear because of the country music being turned up too loud (what the fuck is the attraction to country?). So I decided I'm going to do something about it. I'm going to duct-tape a large rock to my handlebars and launch it at the first dipshit, low-self-image, Cheap-Cuts mullet-wearing, homophobic, misogynistic loser who opens his mouth. And I will laugh. Some may view this as an extreme measure to take, but you must understand, I've been putting up with these mouth-breathers my entire life and it's time I took a stand. Plus it's fun to write about.

So about the chess...I finally beat Haris. Despite feeling as though Satan had just scrubbed his ass with me before wringing me out (from the bike ride). I forgot to save the game, though, so I don't have any proof. Haris assures me that he will admit that I beat him. Plus, it gives me incentive to beat him again.

That is all.
  • Current Music
    Lulling drone of the box-fan.