I'm almost afraid of finishing this book because once I've got the knowlege, I've also the responsibility to either:
1. Trust this knowlege blindly and incorporate this knowlege into me.
2. Research and verify or debunk and reevaluate.
Either way, I'd have a responsibility. And I've been having this thing with responsibility lately. *shrug*
And what if this book teaches me what I need to know but I don't take action? Like, I know that exercising is good for me but I'd really rather sit around and eat pizza and drink beer. I ignore the knowlege but beat myself up about it later.
I've been feeling a "shift" inside me lately. I don't know whether it's a good shift or a bad shift but something is changing...growing. It's going to be one of those things where I won't really understand until "it's" over.
I hate being alone. My mind travels in bad directions.